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Midweek Musing: on Holy Hope

Reflecting on Luke 5:1–11 and 1 Corinthians 15:1–11 at Wesley Uniting Church, Canberra. 

Three words, ideas, movements, occur to me from the stories this week. Honesty. Hesed. Hope. and three different ways of pronouncing ‘h’ – silent, flegmatic, and neutral.

Honesty. Paul and Peter both, in their different ways, name themselves as ‘sinners’. Paul says, I do not deserve to be called an apostle because I had been persecuting the church of God. Peter says I am a sinful man. How much baggage do you think we’ll trip over, now, as those phrases, I do not deserve, I am sinful, enter the room? These ancient stories have travelled far, and collected quite some baggage along the way. And so have we. Particularly with the language of ‘sin’.

What is your response – yes, that, the emotion stirring in your gut at the thought of being undeserving, sinful; and those, the thoughts and memories hovering in your mind at the idea of not being worthy. Pay attention. See where that baggage is, and perhap…

Diary of a chronically exhausted vicar. Episode 21.

I wrote last about adjusting the rhythms of my daily life, for the new circumstance brought about by this exhaustion. I have had to adjust my expectations about life in this new city, too.

After the intense and intentional connections with many communities and activities in my first year in Edinburgh, I had thought to do the same in Canberra.
But my work is different here, and my energy and attention was needed for getting to know the parish and the people I serve.
My health is different now; the energy I had at the start of the PhD is no longer.
My story is different after three years in Scotland, after earning 'Dr', after returning home, but not to my home town. I have a wide and scattered network of friends, and less need for a big circle here.

I shall not berate myself for being immersed in my community of faith - the wisdom is that this can become unhealthy for ministers, without the balance of relationships beyond the congregation. Rather, I will embrace this as a gift a…

fall, water

for Mary Oliver, January 2019 
this one this wild this full abundant precious cup:  life overflowing